Bible study

I seriously started reading&studying Bible last semester. My friend Jeremy's been helping me a lot!

Actually i read Bible a bit 3.5 years ago finding it confusing and boring. I guess the confusion brought up the boredom. (please don't laught at me) i watched House Season5 Episode 15 and I even didn't realize the guy that showed up in the patient's illusion was Jesus at the first sight. There're (still) things that i don't/didn't understand: why do people bother to fast ( i thought fasting=starvation, thanks to Jer, i got it now) themselves; why are people supposed to be sooo kind and generous that they could love their enemies and forgive people who've done bad things to them; How do people store up for themselves treasures in heaven (by being nice to people?), etc. However, I guess God also let us to question him. He won't expect us to obey him all along. We're not his slaves but children and he loves us that's why we pray to, love, or even be mad at our Father.

Seriously I am falling in love with Bible which is full of wisdom, advice, etc. I started from Matthew and I just finished Matthew 6. Below are things i took from Matthew that i really like .

One does not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God-Matthew 4-3

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. Matthew: 5-8

Blessed are you when people revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evial against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you. Matthew: 5-11

Give to everyone who begs from you, and do not refuse anyone who wants to borrow from you. Matthew 5-42so that your alms maybe done in secret;and your Father who sees it in secret will reward you. Matthew: 6-4(to be continued)

well, it's easy to just read Bible. It's way hard to perform what Bible says, but i'm getting there :)

passport-->visa- ->the U.K-->?

Last night i got a news from allen that C who applied her visa on 19th Jan got it done while I applied it on 15th Jan but i hadn't heard anything about it yet. worse, i left the reference number in my dorm>_< I left it cos i thought they would mail it to me. If my visa would be refused they would at least give me a call or whatever to let me know. I was pretty worried and decided to get back to school(the next day which is today) to get the reference number so that i could track my visa .

right after arriving in Baoding, i got Dad's text saying " ur visa is mailed to you, I'll keep it till u get home" omg! on the one hand I was like "ugh... I should've waited for another day", on the other hand i was so happy i finally got my visa. I turned around into the bus-ticket-service hall right away.

I gazed at the envolope for quite a while and then opened it carefully in fear of tearing any info paper. "REFUSAL OF ENTRY CLEARANCE" came into my eyes... ! guess u know how i felt like at that moment. yeah, i was very upset, frustrated, bummed ... *sigh*At that moment i thought of what Martie (the hero in Back To The Future) said :" no, i can't. what if i'm refused. what if they say:'kid, ur no good'. i don't think i can take it." well, i guess i was bolder than him, at least i took a shot. I'm going through what Martie was afraid (refusal).

It is a dramatic world, isn't it? many times the things that u paid much effort would disappoint you while the things that u barely were hoping for would surprise you, i mean a good surprise. If it is so, ( the visa thing is really a disappointment) i guess there's a surprise coming to me :)

It's heavy

I was chatting with sb " remember i told you the other day....." at the beginning of Jan
he was like " THE OTHER DAY? lol, It was last year !"

I just want to say time always tips toe past us... when people realize it is 2009 now, people always feel like ( *sigh*) they should have done this , done that in the past year.

I am not really doing sth but checking blogs. I read July's blog, feeling heavy. I feel like i still have so many things that I wanna do but it seems i don't have that much time left.

I feel a lot of pressure right now from finding a job, study and stuff. *sigh* I guess that's life. I have no choice but take it.

( Gosh, I have to say it's hard to write in English. It seems like i start every paragraph with " I " ugh.... )