The First Time Officially Being a Teacher

Ok, I just got off work and still am excited.

People who know me, know how much i dislike people call me "teacher". Jer used to call me that which made me feel like I'm already 40 lol haha well, that's not really the reason. i guess it's just i never see him as my teacher or student.

Anyway, it was the first time i was truely glad to hear people call me that. The kids are real cute :) and they speak very cute English. Eg: " I and my friend not have pen, so Mia give us pens" " on my way back home, i saw spiderman, i wish i am him, becuz it not had any homework... haha what she was trying to say was she wish she were the spiderman cuz he didn't have any homework".. funny funny. There was one moment that i felt really emabarrassed. so i noticed most of them tend to read "th" like "s" . so i asked them to make up a story with "think" and "thank" so that they could practice reading them. Angel went and say :" I really like Mia, she helps me learn English... ... " when she was talking she was looking at me in my eyes. then it came to her ending-I want you say "sex", i got blushed right away, i was like what? what was she talking about?! then i asked her to repeat her ending, this time she went slow, she said " i want u say sanks" oh my gosh! see how important it is to say words correctly!! i realized what she meant was she wanted to thank me >_<


Near the end of this class, i asked them to write me some feedbacks, see below.



so basically they thougt that i look pretty and my English is good :)

blew is a pic that i took for my students :)

22nd Birthday

my parents don't really celebrate birthdays. I guess "birthday celebration" is more of a western thing seriously. As far as I know many people like my parents' age don't celebrate their birthdays. some of them celebrate their kids' birthdays though.

When i was little, I was so very jealous of my little buddies who got birthday cakes, gifts, etc. Mom and Dad were like " honey, we don't do it, it just doesn't make much sense. the day u were born was when mom was in great pain ( physically)... plus, we love you not in the way celebrating ur birthday honey..." to a little kid, it just doesn't make sense.. i still wanted a birthday celebration so much... i still remember how excited i was to have the first birthday cake that i begged a lot, the first Teddy Bear from my cousin.. somehow as i grow older i miss that kinda "crave" for birthday and that eagerness for being grown up.

It's my lunar bday today. me ane Emily went to one of my favourite restaurants for lunch. we had steak, pasta and stuff which were real good, we both were so stuffed hehe.






I don't look forward to birthdays anymore whatsoever! The bday is nothing but telling me that i'm getting older. well, I'm not upset by me getting older but that time goes so fast. The Renaissance has a term, carpe diem, translated from Latin means seize the day, that is, live every day to the fullest. However, i can't do it, many times i just lazy around doing nothing.( i don't mean to sound pessimistic, i'm actually an optimistic person. I guess i've been too stressed lately from school and everything.) Jer made fun of me saying that I like to be lazy around more than he does in Chinese of course. well, actually i think he is right. he's so studious.

anyway, I had a really good day today. Emily is a really sweet friend. I'm so blessed to have her :) I'll be good and make the best of every day :)

Bible study

I seriously started reading&studying Bible last semester. My friend Jeremy's been helping me a lot!

Actually i read Bible a bit 3.5 years ago finding it confusing and boring. I guess the confusion brought up the boredom. (please don't laught at me) i watched House Season5 Episode 15 and I even didn't realize the guy that showed up in the patient's illusion was Jesus at the first sight. There're (still) things that i don't/didn't understand: why do people bother to fast ( i thought fasting=starvation, thanks to Jer, i got it now) themselves; why are people supposed to be sooo kind and generous that they could love their enemies and forgive people who've done bad things to them; How do people store up for themselves treasures in heaven (by being nice to people?), etc. However, I guess God also let us to question him. He won't expect us to obey him all along. We're not his slaves but children and he loves us that's why we pray to, love, or even be mad at our Father.

Seriously I am falling in love with Bible which is full of wisdom, advice, etc. I started from Matthew and I just finished Matthew 6. Below are things i took from Matthew that i really like .

One does not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God-Matthew 4-3

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. Matthew: 5-8

Blessed are you when people revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evial against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you. Matthew: 5-11

Give to everyone who begs from you, and do not refuse anyone who wants to borrow from you. Matthew 5-42so that your alms maybe done in secret;and your Father who sees it in secret will reward you. Matthew: 6-4(to be continued)

well, it's easy to just read Bible. It's way hard to perform what Bible says, but i'm getting there :)

passport-->visa- ->the U.K-->?

Last night i got a news from allen that C who applied her visa on 19th Jan got it done while I applied it on 15th Jan but i hadn't heard anything about it yet. worse, i left the reference number in my dorm>_< I left it cos i thought they would mail it to me. If my visa would be refused they would at least give me a call or whatever to let me know. I was pretty worried and decided to get back to school(the next day which is today) to get the reference number so that i could track my visa .

right after arriving in Baoding, i got Dad's text saying " ur visa is mailed to you, I'll keep it till u get home" omg! on the one hand I was like "ugh... I should've waited for another day", on the other hand i was so happy i finally got my visa. I turned around into the bus-ticket-service hall right away.

I gazed at the envolope for quite a while and then opened it carefully in fear of tearing any info paper. "REFUSAL OF ENTRY CLEARANCE" came into my eyes... ! guess u know how i felt like at that moment. yeah, i was very upset, frustrated, bummed ... *sigh*At that moment i thought of what Martie (the hero in Back To The Future) said :" no, i can't. what if i'm refused. what if they say:'kid, ur no good'. i don't think i can take it." well, i guess i was bolder than him, at least i took a shot. I'm going through what Martie was afraid (refusal).

It is a dramatic world, isn't it? many times the things that u paid much effort would disappoint you while the things that u barely were hoping for would surprise you, i mean a good surprise. If it is so, ( the visa thing is really a disappointment) i guess there's a surprise coming to me :)

It's heavy

I was chatting with sb " remember i told you the other day....." at the beginning of Jan
he was like " THE OTHER DAY? lol, It was last year !"

I just want to say time always tips toe past us... when people realize it is 2009 now, people always feel like ( *sigh*) they should have done this , done that in the past year.

I am not really doing sth but checking blogs. I read July's blog, feeling heavy. I feel like i still have so many things that I wanna do but it seems i don't have that much time left.

I feel a lot of pressure right now from finding a job, study and stuff. *sigh* I guess that's life. I have no choice but take it.

( Gosh, I have to say it's hard to write in English. It seems like i start every paragraph with " I " ugh.... )

kick off

I've been thinking to start one English blog for a long time... ( i have it now, yay!)

I kept very busy during Spring Festival. When i was little, i always hoped time would go as fast as it could so that i would have new clothes and many nice foods that i couldn't have except on Spring Festival eve. i've grown up now. i just want time to slow down. Mommy, daddy and my roomies seem to be so confused at why i love the mirror so much. I want to enjoy this young face and remember it.. when i'm getting old, i don't think i will like to look at myself at the mirror all the time like i do right now. I know this is my best time and I'm enjoying it. I'm trying very hard to make the best of it.

I'm thankful and happy for that these things happened last year: I finally ended a terrible relation ( it was just sooo horrible i don't even want to talk about it any more) glad that ended ^_^
xiao bai and I got to know each other last year. It is a great thing. He loves Chinese culture, people and the language. It is so awesome that we are able to exchange our languages, cultures,etc. He's a good friend as well. My friend, I hope 2009 will be great for you. good luck with everything. (oh, i do really hope u will convince your boss haha ;) )p.s. your Chinese is progressing so fast, i 'm afriad u'll even get over me!! haha..Jer, i'm so pround of you :)

It is so magical that 2 people who are hundreds of thousands of miles away from each other get to be good friends. I'm soo thankful, i got to know you D. I said a prayer to wish u to do even better in ur career and I thanked Jehovah to let us be friends as well. When i'm writing to/about you, thinking of you , i still think about the plane i took to visit you ;) everytime i just end up laughing (laughing) haha . i really like the cup () hehe.

one of the most exciting things have happened this year so far was that Allen got accpeted by the Graduate School of Elctrical Dpartment Strathclyd Universersity. I'm soooo pround of you honey!! keep working hard on it! 2009 will be awesome to you!!!

ah... I'm on winter vacation right now. i relaxed too much till Spring Festival. I started to study hard.. there is a big test coming up on March ( dang it-_-!! )